A place for me to write down thoughts, feelings, poetry, stories, get things off my mind, keep them on my mind, or just to write really long drafts and never publish them...
Tuesday, August 04, 2020
sometimes
sometimes it isn't bad. I liked my relationship with big dog because when her and I were dating, and I was out living hanging w friends whatever, on my own, I had very little anxiety. That anxiety has come back since we broke up, and hanging with friends is harder now. I guess breakups are just hard. Part of me feels like the breakup was the wrong thing, because I'm coming out of the relationship and throwing myself into a project even through my sadness about it. Usually, I just feel like I made a ton of bad choices. While I have regrets, I think for the most part I was sweet and caring and kind to her. I really love her and I feel like I showed that a lot. Of course I made mistakes, but I also think I did a lot right. I'm gonna keep throwing myself into writing, keep looking into MFT programs, and let the pain of the losing her sink in. It's been enough time, I need to let myself feel the sadness more often so I it hurts less
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