Happy fucking birthday.  I slept through most of the night and was rewarded with a nightmare I have a vivid memory of.  My ex, Stephanie, and I were meeting up.  She told me she has been cheating on me with her new partner for the entire time we were together, she obviously never loved me in the dream, and took joy in my pain.  None of this is strange, there is some truth in all of this, and some of it is an exaggeration.  It's hard to miss someone you are still so goddamned fucking angry at.  She still has not written me, hasn't said sorry once, for anything.  FUCK.  I have been so angry this week.  I think it's mostly because being born in Alexis shadow led to a lot of bad feelings that have allowed me to be in shitty relationships later in my life.