more on anger

I know being mad at her is a way to keep her around and act like she is still here, but it's not real.  It's just an attempt to keep holding onto something that doesn't exist anymore, and maybe never did.  Letting go of the anger means letting go completely of her.  It means letting go of justice, equality, and other bullshit abstractions that have no meaning.  Letting go is not my strong suit.