hate

Civilization takes my life from me, 20 years of school
Authority ever present, autonomy never actualized
I don't take care of myself and we don't take care of each other

The cycle of abuse continues, and I play all the parts
survivor, victim, abuser, voyeur,
just an actor in this death march on the stage
born into a play, the only exit death

And i will die, alone, full of toxins, in a dying world
I will take you with me, plankton and glaciers and orangutans and sharks
I am your extinction
I cannot remove the mask of ennui or apathy, it is stuck

beneath all of this, deep down, I am human
and this knowledge only makes it worse,
worse knowing what could be that never will
a silent witness to your destruction, I clear the path

I am the chainsaw hacking down the forests
I am the fuel rods from nuclear reactors filling landfills
I am the poisoned groundwater and the acid rain
I am your destruction, and I will take you with me

Even in my death I cannot give life,
because I am full of fast food and shiny poisonous apples
so take me along with the rest of us
destroy us, for what we have wrought

I am the enemy of life
I am the dead and the dying and will not be reborn.
Into abyssal infinity I run, dreaming of the moment that never was for me.
I am the plague, the holocaust, the genocide, in me there lies nothing but Leviathan

I never existed, just a soulless death machine masquerading, feigning existence

world-eater, soul-crusher, life-taker, oath-breaker, death-bringer, apocalypse-maker

I'd take everything with me if I could, and I can, and I will
For I am the darkness you fear, I am the deep feeling that you can't admit, I am nothing