Jobs:
im looking for a job right now, but ive only applied for random jobs with kids because that is all that i can probably deal with. i harbor so much animosity towards work in general, especially any type of business job. i just dont understand how that is satisfying. I have friends who want to work in business who arent even that concerned whether the business is helping people or performing some function that is good for society or the world in general. I find this weird and horribly upsetting. so i guess for the meantime i should probably go back to school. I dont really see any other thesible options. i really just wanted to blog so that i could post this


So I hold my tongue, forget the song
Tie my shoes, start walking off
And try to just keep moving on
With my broken heart and my absent God
And I have no faith but it's all I want
To be loved, and believe
In my soul, in my soul

because basically thats how i feel, i have no faith in god or anything beyond the natural realm of the earth and surrounding planets and galaxies, and ditto for the broken heart. i feel like everyday im carrying around a broken heart and a faithless brain. i want to believe in something.