Back to a place i thought i would never be:

driving home friday night from a bbq full of drink food and leisure with one great friend and 10 new ones i suddenly was overcome with a strange feeling of emptiness. Specifically, i no longer love a person i thought i always would. i am no longer in love with aly, but more importantly, i honestly do not think i love her at all. i do not know who she is, and i do not care for her all that much. it is the strangest feeling to be so distant from someone i was so close to. she is not the girl i loved and idealized but now she is just a girl who other girls can measure up to. i guess this is good thing, but it does take me back to a time in my life pre-aly where i felt incredibly alone. however, the big difference now is i have friends who i love with every fiber of my being and who i know feel the same way about me, despite how crazy i am. so with that i drove home, and went to sleep feeling OK